Friday, February 12, 2010

why this blog thing is difficult.

So first of all, I would like to say thank you to a good friend who helped me spruce up this blog a bit. His thought process was that if I liked the look of it a little more, then I would be more inclined to write in it. We shall see if his plan works. Doubtful, but I am open-minded.

I thought I would try to explain why I am so utterly pessimistic about my blogging abilities. I really, truly, from the bottom of my heart want to stay as connected as I can to family and friends. However, it has always been difficult for me to commit to journaling, emailing, writing letters, etc. For crying out loud, I even have the hardest time uploading Facebook albums within the 1st 6 months of taking pictures. Why would I think blogging would be any different?

Need a visual? Here are only SOME of my unfinished journals I have attempted to write in throughout the years...



Like I said, these are only the ones that I could find. There are a few more that I know for sure should be in this pile, including some of the nifty ones with the locks and keys. Those would have been helpful if I didn't always lose the keys. But that always gave me an excuse to start a new one, so it never frustrated me.

I always start journals and then get halfway (if I'm lucky) through, forget to write for a few months - a year, and think that if I start a new journal I will be more likely to keep up with it. I actually have been doing ok with it for the past year or so, so maybe I'm not a lost cause. I am not proud of this struggle...I wish it wasn't the case.

So it's time to stop wishing. I'm going to be a blogger for the next 27.5 months if it kills me. I already have 3 posts down, and I haven't even left yet! Pretty great start if I do say so myself.

I mean, other people like blogging. They are good at it. Maybe I can be more dedicated than I thought. But if I used that as encouragement for everything, then I would have tried a lot harder/been a lot better at basketball, volleyball, band, choir, art, the list could go on and on. And that would just get depressing. I think I make my case, though....but maybe this can be different? After all, I can just think of it as a method of communication.

It can't be that hard, right?

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